Do you ever feel like you are torturing yourself, but you can't help it?
That's how I've been feeling the last few days. You see on Monday, I found out that the last of my TTC friends got her BFP. And while I am so excited for her, I hate being the only one left. Especially since I started TTC first. <--I just read that and realized how immature and selfish it sounds, but I will leave it.
I am in contact with these girls (all 8 of them) pretty much on a daily basis. And while it pains to me hear all the exciting news of their pregnancies, be it gender ultrasounds, first kicks, the bfp, contractions, the aches and pains, etc, I wouldn't miss it for the world to share in their experiences. I am proud that these girls call me their friend and probably have more in common with them in some ways than I do any of my friends that I see in person. (I won't say "in real life" vs "not real life" because after almost 4 years of almost daily contact I consider them to be real life friends).
The greatest part of being friends with these girls is that they understand if I'm quiet for a few days and don't say much. Or even if I pretty much say the same thing over and over while I have a pity party for myself. They understand, they've been there.
If you are experiencing trouble TTC or in any other part of your life, I suggest you reach out. I found some of my greatest friends on WTE. There are forums out there for so many things now that you are bound to find some to talk to that will understand, you just have to be willing to find them.
Thank you to all my friends who have been there to support me through the tough times in life. I don't know where I'd be without you!
I remember feeling like "the last one". When the two doing IVF stopped posting, one by one everyone else got pregnant but me. It was so hard to keep going, talking to you guys. But then, it was my turn. Hoping upon hope that your turn is here and SOON. But either way, we are always there for you.
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