Thursday, September 11, 2008

Orgasmic Fruit

Well first I'll update on the issue I had in my last post with people spreading the news. G called me first thing in the morning yesterday to tell me "I just wanted you to know that it wasn't C that told me. I wouldn't want you to be upset with her because you didn't want her to tell." I wasn't really sure what to think, of her calling, but she still didn't tell me who told her. Like I told her, it's not that big of a deal, but it would be nice to know who else they have told.

Today's lunch was much better than yesterday!!! That's where the title comes from. I had a craving for watermelon so I went to Price Chopper and got one or their pre-cut melon dishes. Then I saw the salad bar and grabbed a salad too. When I got to work I ate the salad first. It was OK, the best part was the tomatoes. Then I got to my wonderful fruit. It had cantaloupe, watermelon and honeydew. And all I could say was "MMMmmmm" literally, I was saying it out loud without even realizing it. I think it was the best fruit I'd ever had, I can't wait to have more today!

I'm starting to have some troubles with B. Don't get me wrong, he's been a lot better since I got back from my trip as far as understanding that I'm tired and don't feel good and all that. And he's quit smoking (well that's what he wants me to think, I'm sure he's still smoking at work cause he carries his lighter, but hey I haven't seen him smoke in over a week) and he isn't drinking in front of me except for at football, which I knew would happen, but he didn't get drunk or anything. My problem is that I don't feel like he wants to spend any time with me. It seems like every time it's going to be just the two of us he has something he needs to run off and do. Sunday after the football game he had to go to his buddy's to help him with something, I was in bed when he got home. Monday night he got home from work and had to go tell his friend that he needed to pick his girlfriend up early because his friend doesn't have a phone right now. This night he was home earlier, but he kept telling me I should be in bed resting if I didn't feel good so eventually I gave being with him in the living room. Then Tuesday is his bowling night. He gets picked up at 6. It irritated me that he slept when he got home from work and then when I got home he got in the shower and then on the computer. It was like he was avoiding me. So I left for my mom's. And was home around 7 and in bed way before he got home. Last night I got home and he was watching TV so I went and joined him. After about 5 minutes of chit chat he said that he needed to drive to our camp do some measuring and then stop at his buddy's. He left 45 minutes after I got home and it was after 8 when he returned.

Now I understand I'm not a barrel of fun, but why does he keep leaving me. I feel like he doesn't want to spend time with me. And I know when I bring this up he's going to say "well what do you want to do?" and that's where the problem is. I don't have anything in particular I want to do, but if he can sit at his buddy's house, why can't he sit at our house with me?


  1. I'm SUCH a Polly Anna, I'm always looking for the silver lining, so here's my idea of what maybe he's going through. Feel free to kick the crap outta me if I'm wrong..I won't blame ya.
    Maybe he's scared and doesn't know how to tell you because he knows what you're worried about. When things go crazy in our lives, my husband usually keeps his mouth shut in case one of my worries isn't his. That way I'm not adding one more thing to my "worry plate". Does that make sense? Also, men like to go into their "caves" when things are different. They don't talk to their friends or us, they just kinda go into their heads and think. Hope this helps a bit and you have a better day today!

  2. Hey Brandi,
    It may be that you're acting differently, but that doesn't mean that your feelings are valid. Talking always works, well it's always worked for me. He sounds a bit like a social butterfly and that you may just need a little more TLC, neither of which are a bad thing. Hang in there, sweetie. It'll all work itself out.
    P.S..feel free to email if you'd rather not switch and back and forth between blogs...*laughs*


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