Long Weekend

In every sense of the word.

B and I are having some major communication problems and I was in tears at least once every day this weekend. Granted I know that a lot of this is hormonal, but there are things he could do to make this easier. Let me explain...

B drank (to the point of at least having a good buzz) every day this weekend. Friday with my friends, Saturday at our local dirt racetrack with his friends, and all day Sunday with his buddy and my family.

Now I understand that I am the one carrying the baby, and I cut back on my drinking quite a while ago, but it was still part of my weekends up until 3 weeks ago. And I smoked up until the morning I found out I was pregnant. Now back before I knew I was Pg, B told me that he was going to quit smoking with me when I found out I was pregnant. Well he hasn't yet.

Saturday after crying to him that its so hard sitting around watching everyone smoke and drink he asked me if I wanted to go sit on the porch with him. I said yes because I was sick of being in the house. What did he do but open a beer and light a cigarette. OMG I wanted to smack him. It hadn't been 5 minutes since I told him it bothered me. Then that night on the way to the race he said he needed to stop and get cigarettes, I said "I thought you were quitting?" And his response was "It's going to be hard" Well no shit!

Sunday was the worst because he got quite drunk. He started drinking around 1 and we went to the bar for the pig roast around 2. Then around 7 we walked to another bar. Finally around 8 I was ready to go home. He and his buddy were drunk and I was sick of them acting stupid and he got mad at me. I was exhausted, I hadn't had a nap all day and he did nothing but bitch at me because I was ruining his fun!

Finally yesterday he asked what was wrong and why I wasn't talking to him. I broke down once again but told him I wasn't going to bother telling him because he wasn't going to listen just like Saturday. And I explained what he did. And I explained to him that just because I HAD to quit that stuff, didn't make it easy, and if anything he is making it harder for me. I think he may understand now, but it's easy to act that way when the weekend is over and you're recovering for the work week ahead. I guess we'll see what next weekend brings.