So here's the deal, I've been wrestling with myself over this 'adult weekend' for a few weeks now. The date has finally been set and I'm really nervous cause it won't be my mom watching her, it's going to be B's mom (not the one I'm at odds with, but the one I love). So it's planned for the weekend of Sept 12. We will only be gone about 24 hours. But then I realized that this weekend we are supposed to be going to the Nights Under Fire show on Saturday which means another evening of not seeing Lillian. And that makes 2 weekends in a row.
Now if you remember the new sitter has already signed up for hours at the hospital on Thursday and Friday of next week. I'm having trouble finding some one to watch her. This is what I've decided...
I will be going to the show this Saturday if we decide to still go, I will also be going to adult weekend. I have Monday off so I will be with Lillian all day then so its still like I have my normal weekend with her. Then I will take of Thursday and Friday next week, being that I can't find anyone anyway and that will be like my weekend with her. I'm trying to trick myself into thinking that I won't be spending any less time with her than normal. Of course in the back of my mind I know that I'm not spending the extra time with her that I could, but I think I need to do this as much as it may stress me out. I really need to come to terms with the fact that I'm not a SAHM (Stay At Home Mom) and there's a good chance I never will be. We will both be ok and we will both live through this, I just hope B realizes he's going to have to be my rock when we are gone for the night!
"Forget the trucks, I want the dots!"
Oh Brandi I am glad you are going to get a well needed adult weekend and that you and Lillian are going to be fine with you working, it is better for her to be with somebody like the babysitter and you make money to pay for her food, clothes, and shelter! Think of it like that, you are doing what is best for her!
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