Another First...

But I'm not going to say this one was a good one, for the first time last night Lillian...

Bit my boob!!!  OMG it hurt so bad and she doesn't even have teeth yet!  I instinctively yelled no and pulled from her grasp and you know what she did, bit me again!  This time I kept my nipple away for a few minutes and she started to fuss.  When I gave it back she was nice though.

Oh and last night during bath time she was experimenting with a little dixie cup.  It was so funny cause she knew she would get water if she put it to her mouth, but she was so confused by not having to suck.  She'd put it to her mouth get water, then pull it away looking all puzzled.  It was the cutest thing!

And last but not least...

Actual Cost of Having Lillian:
Mommy's doctor................$3520
Lillian's doctor....................$820
Mommy's Hospital Bill........$5921
Lillian's Hospital Bill............$1944
Total..................................$12,205

What mommy paid (is paying).....$1,497

Being able to post these pictures...

Priceless

Bad Blogger

Well, it's been well over a week since I last posted, and that wasn't a good post.  So here we go...

To follow up on my last post, Nana has stopped "dropping by" the new sitter's.  I felt really bad when T said that she made her feel incompetant, but I told her not to worry cause she did the same thing to me and I had complete faith in her abilities.  Then my mom talked to Nana and she said that she just can't do it any more. 

Last weekend was full of first for Lillian and I.  We spent our first night apart!  I cried on the way to drop her off at her grandma's and B was a great help in comforting me.  I basically had to run out of the house once we got things set up for her.  And then I had a beer.  The night wasn't as good as we wanted it to be, but we had fun.  At 3 am I woke up wishing we could go home.  And in all reality we could have, but that would have meant packing up the tent in the dark and bailing out on helping with clean up in the morning and I didn't think that was right.  Lillian did great for her grandma and her smile when I walked in to get her was priceless!

Then Monday was her firt Buffalo Bills game, she was the cutest fan there!

She did great and only fussed a little with all the cheering that would scare her a little.  I'd just make a happy face and do that little "yay!" and lift her arms and she'd be happy again.  Yesterday was her first full length Bills game and I was pretty impressed with her.  She did get a little fussy at the near her bed time, but that's to be expected.  She loved when we made a touch down cause we always play the song "Hold on to Your Dreams" and dance.  She loves dancing!

My MIL did irritate me for the first time at yesterdays game though.  She kept putting Lilli's binkie in her mouth and holding it there even when Lilli would spit it out.  That really bothered me, but I didn't want to complain cause she was helping me take care of her so I could watch the game and eat too. 

I'm thinking about weening her off the binkie, but I'm not sure it's a good idea with her teething.  What do you think?  Any suggestions on how to go about it?

Oh yeah and the highlight of my weekend was this...

what I woke up to yesterday morning.  She was talking and laughing with her friends

I miss my baby girl a lot this morning.  I can't believe she is going to be 5 months old on Wednesday!

WTF?!?!?!

OMG, I totally want to flip out right now!!! So yesterday, my old sitter, Nana, called me at work to ask if it was ok if she stopped by the new sitter's, T's, to see Lillian. Well I'm at work and I was like ok so I told Traci she would stop by and if she was interrupting to just tell her it was nap time or something. So whatever Nana stopped by and at nap time Traci told her Lillian was getting tired. What did Nana do but get her binki out and start rocking her saying to Traci "This is how I used to put her to sleep." Well Traci just lays her down considering there are 2 other kids there. So Nana realizes this and says, "well I don't want to get her used to this again so I'll put her down."

Well Traci just texted me and told me that Nana showed up at her door wanting to take Lillian for a walk. She figured Nana had called me first and said ok. Which I'm fine with Nana taking her for a walk as long as it isn't disturbing any sort of schedule that Traci has. What I don't like is Nana just showing up at her house. I mean seriously how can she think that its not rude to just show up! So I tell Traci she was fine letting her go and that I'm so sorry that Nana just showed up like that.

So this all happened while I was out in my Jeep pumping. I get inside and sit at my desk and my cell rings, it's Nana. She's calling to tell me that she thinks Lillian has a sore throat because she is acting hungry but won't drink the bottle. And that she thinks she is sick (she also did this before and I took Lillian to the pedi and she was fine just stuffed up like she is now). Umm yeah I know she has a cold, I am her mother after all, and yes Traci tells me when she thinks there is something wrong that I don't already know about. I swear to god now that her grandkids are back in school and she's back from vacation that she wants to get my new sitter (who I love) fired so she can take Lillian back!

Ugh I'm so upset with her. I wouldn't take her back there even if I needed some one to watch her! It's going to be real funny if tomorrow Nana shows up at her house and no one is there. She'll probably call and say "did you know T took Lillian some where?" And I'll be like "umm no, I have Lillian." And besides that I have given T permission to take her some where if she needs to. So far she's only gone to the hospital with her (she works there, not medical needs).

Wordless Wednesday

Lots of Pictures!!!

So I lied to everyone in my last post. I forgot yesterday was a holiday so I'm not posting about cereal until now *bows head in shame*

And I just have so many wonderful pictures to share that I can't decide which to post first, so I'm just going to post them all, ok well my favorites...

Here is Lillian with her new elephant, she just loves it! I'm so glad I got it for her. It seems to have everything she like, rattles, teether, crinkly ears, squeaks when you squeeze it and all the little tags.

Here is Lillian during her first of 3 baths in 2 days. Friday night would have normally been her bath night, but she wasn't feeling well and fell asleep early. So Saturday morning I gave her a bath. I really wanted to go to the Night Under Fire Show so I asked my MIL to babysit.

Yes the MIL that I'm not that fond of taking care of Lillian. Well when we got home at midnight she told me she gave her a bath. I wasn't happy, but I just said "Oh, you didn't have to, she had one this morning." I mean if she needed a bath I probably would have told you. Then the next day when we were at her house she told me she just laid her down in the tub. Umm, that's not cool, I wouldn't even take a bath in

that tub right now, it's gross and dirty, that's the main reason I still use her tub. Her father is a roofer and he gets gross and keeping the tub clean is hard some times, especially when he is doing a tear off like he had been. I really wanted to yell at her, but I didn't. I just don't understand why she wants to play "mommy" instead of grandma. Ugh just play with her, feed her and put her to sleep like I asked!

But anyway, I had to give her a bath Sunday morning too because she pooped all over both of us, again!

This is her new favorite face and it just cracks me up, especially when her eyes get all big and bright. I've been trying to catch it for a few days now and she kept doing it during her bath so I made B get me the camera.

And what everyone I'm sure has been waiting for... Lillian's first bite of rice cereal! Her father couldn't understand why it was such a big moment but I got him to take the picture anyway. She didn't seem to fond of it so I think tonight when we try again I'm going to try and puree it a little more so there is less texture. Because guess what, I am now a baby food cook! Yup, that's right, I made her rice cereal and some peaches. The peaches are frozen to be used later, but I had some fresh ones I didn't want to go bad so I made them up and froze them.

She does love the spoon though! While I was making the cereal I gave her the spoon to play with so that she wouldn't be more interested in that while I was trying to feed her. Amazingly, she put it right in her mouth the right way. Normally things go in sideways! She also tried to help hold the spoon while I was feeding her.

And here she is looking at her daddy saying "Make mommy just give me the booby!"

I think in the end she got very little in her belly, but it wasn't because she wasn't moving it back with her tongue. Anything that came out was with a river or drool.

Speaking of drool, this weekend was the first time she really used her teething rings.

I have to say, with the teething and cold she has I can't believe how well behaved she is. The hardest part for her is bedtime. She gets very tired but gets woken up by her stuffiness several times before she falls into a nice deep sleep. For a couple nights I let her fall asleep in our bed, I hope she doesn't think its going to happen all the time now!

Well that's enough rambling for today, I have more pictures I'll post tomorrow...

Just Rambling

I really don't know what I want to blog about today. There's a lot going on, but nothing all that interesting.

I'm excited that Saturday I'm getting my hair cut. I have no idea what I want, so I'm just going to walk in and tell her "I need something very low maintenance that doesn't require any more than a brush and maybe some mousse. And there has to be some sort of length to it." I don't want a really short butchy, spiking hair cut.

We may go to the Night Under Fire show again Saturday night, but we haven't decided yet.

Sunday is a cookout at my FIL's house to pay the boys for building the pavilion over his hot tub.

Lillian's first week with the new sitter has been wonderful! She seems to enjoy it and I'm glad she is around other kids now. I think I may even become friends with T. It would be really nice to have some friends my age with kids.

I can't remember if I mentioned it or not, but Lillian's highchair arrived Wednesday night and we tried it out. I didn't want her to freak out the first time we try solids just cause she was in a new chair. This is what happened...

Umm what is this?

Well, this might be alright...

Yeah I like it!

That being said during lunch today I'm headed to Walmart to buy The Magic Bullet. I plan to make her baby food as it's another healthy and easy way to save money! I almost had The Bullet for free too, but my sister now has an apartment at school so she decided to keep hers. You can expect picture and/or a video on Monday (maybe before)...

Tricking Myself

Well first off the new sitter is going great! B even said to me the other night, I can tell you really like her, you don't seem so stressed these days. Yay me!!!



So here's the deal, I've been wrestling with myself over this 'adult weekend' for a few weeks now. The date has finally been set and I'm really nervous cause it won't be my mom watching her, it's going to be B's mom (not the one I'm at odds with, but the one I love). So it's planned for the weekend of Sept 12. We will only be gone about 24 hours. But then I realized that this weekend we are supposed to be going to the Nights Under Fire show on Saturday which means another evening of not seeing Lillian. And that makes 2 weekends in a row.

Now if you remember the new sitter has already signed up for hours at the hospital on Thursday and Friday of next week. I'm having trouble finding some one to watch her. This is what I've decided...

I will be going to the show this Saturday if we decide to still go, I will also be going to adult weekend. I have Monday off so I will be with Lillian all day then so its still like I have my normal weekend with her. Then I will take of Thursday and Friday next week, being that I can't find anyone anyway and that will be like my weekend with her. I'm trying to trick myself into thinking that I won't be spending any less time with her than normal. Of course in the back of my mind I know that I'm not spending the extra time with her that I could, but I think I need to do this as much as it may stress me out. I really need to come to terms with the fact that I'm not a SAHM (Stay At Home Mom) and there's a good chance I never will be. We will both be ok and we will both live through this, I just hope B realizes he's going to have to be my rock when we are gone for the night!

"Forget the trucks, I want the dots!"

The New Sitter

Well the verdict is in... dun, dun, dun...

I think I like her! Actually she friended me on facebook yesterday morning, funny thing, I graduated with her husband.

Anyway, there were a few things I forgot to tell her yesterday morning, like I didn't expect Lillian to drink all 4 bottles I sent (I always send an extra in case something happens, like one spills or I get stuck in traffic or something) and guess what, everything turned out fine! Apparently babies have a sense that adults don't and can tell when some one is breastfeeding, we figured this out because T (what I will be calling the new sitter) breastfeeds her son and Lillian didn't want to take a bottle from her, but when T had one of her friends that isn't breastfeeding try and feed her, Lillian ate like a champ. Eventually Lillian did take the bottle from T though, I suggested today that she try laying her somewhere instead of holding her.

Also, without me asking she wrote up note about Lillian's day. Like times that she ate and how much, diaper changes, and times that she napped and how long and playing. Only thing we aren't sure about is why she didn't nap much even though she could tell she was tired. We think it was just because of the new surroundings.

I even have a cute story already. T have two little boys, Landon is 2 and Reid is 8 months. Well when Landon got up yesterday T asked if he wanted to come say hi to Lillian and he said "no, put her down, you need to hold Reed." I thought that was so cute he wanted her holding his little brother. By the end of the day Landon was helping get her bottles and take care of her though. He really is a cute little boy. And Reid and Lillian love to flirt with each other, should I be worried? LOL

Oh and this morning it was so funny, T said "I meant to ask you last night, did you pump all 4 bottles at once yesterday? They were all room temp!" I laughed and said "I wish, it would be much easier, but I've been defrosting frozen milk to make sure it doesn't go to waste." I'd love it if I could pump 24oz at a time! And I'm really liking having a sitter that understands breastfeeding!

Lillian has a very stuffy nose, but she seems to be dealing with it well, the only time it bothers her is when she is eating. I hope the saline starts clearing her out soon. Here are a few new pics...

The little stinker would only smile after I took a picture!