Tuesday, October 11, 2011

19 Week Depression

Today's post is going to be more on the serious side.  No one ever thinks that once they finally get what they've been praying for, for almost 2 years, that they would get depressed.  But the truth is, depression doesn't only happen during hard times or with the loss of a loved one.
To some one who's never been depressed before, it's a very hard thing to understand.  It's not something you can just "snap out of" or "get over".  Its typically this feeling of seclusion that keeps increasing until you realize that you are depressed.  Most times you find that while you are generally happy with your life, you feel unhappy and like nothing will make you happy.  That probably doesn't make sense to anyone who hasn't been there, but that's what it's like.
For example: Right now, besides still having to work every day at a job I don't like, my life is generally happy.  Problem is, I don't feel happy.  I feel like I'm going through the motions and that things are hopeless, even though I know they aren't and that everything is going to be fine. 
Most times it's hard to diagnose depression during pregnancy because most doctors will just blame it on the hormones.  I do think hormones make it so much worse.  
I feel bad for all those who try to help those who are depressed.  Hearing over and over again that they don't know what's wrong and that there is nothing you can do to help has to be discouraging and sound like they don't want help.  But the truth is, we really don't know what's causing these feelings and that if we knew what would make us feel better, we'd be sure to tell you.
REMINDER: Friday at 9:30 the poll for Gender and chance at a free hat closes.  Be sure to leave a comment with your vote!  Just voting doesn't tell me who voted.  I have 5 votes on the poll but only know what 3 people (Sunny, Jenn, PatchHats) voted for.  If you already voted, but didn't leave a comment, leave a comment now.
Top Mommy Blogs - Mom Blog Directory


  1. My pregnancy with my second was my hardest emotionally and mentally (pregnant right after a M/C). But once she was born... I bonded with her so much easier than any of my other three children!

    I'm so sorry you're feeling this way!!!

    PS I voted GIRL

  2. I'm sorry you are going through this. :( I know that is hard. I've struggled with some depression and it keeps popping up in spurts now. I think the pregnancy hormones really give it the extra boost it needs to really make your life miserable some days. I hope you are able to get through it soon, though. <3

    I voted boy! :D

  3. Joy - I'm glad to know you didn't have any trouble bonding after the baby was born. That is definitely one of my fears!

    I have your vote down!

  4. Tory - Thank you. I've faught with depression my whole life and the hormones definitely give it that extra little boost to make your life miserable some days. I think I am slowly coming out of it for now. I think my u/s coming up on Friday is helping. I have your boy vote down!


Your ramblings...