How Things Change

It's amazing how things change over time. This morning I was thinking about what I thought I wanted when I was in high-school. I wanted to become a successful engineer who could take care of herself, then I would get married and have a family and of course still have my career.

Today all that seems so foolish to me. Well besides the family. I have my little family and I love them with all my heart. I now wish I didn't have such a good job and that my husband had a better one. Don't get me wrong, he does have a good job and helps support the family, but he couldn't support us on his own if he had to.

I guess what I'm trying to say is: "screw having a successful job, I want to be at home with my little girl and I can't because at the age of 18 I was to damn determined to be self sufficient."

She's growing up so fast! Last night she put her pajamas on BY HERSELF!!! Of course this was after she wanted to pretend she was a baby and have me hold her and rock her while holding her sippy cup for her. She's a goof and just loves to role play. She has such an imagination.

In other news, I've been running about 2 miles a day, 4 days a week for a few weeks now. Some mornings I hate it and others I love it. Either way, I'm doing it. I need to shed some of this fat!

We have also been trying to make Lillian a big sister for over a year now. We will be going to Vegas for a few days this month so we have decided to wait until Lillian turns 2 before we start any testing. As my friends one by one announce their pregnancies I remind myself that it will happen when it's meant to. Only the perfect egg and prefect sperm can create something as wonderful as my Lillian.